Life is beautiful with it's exciting flavors of toppings. Every step we take, the direction we choose, the milestone we head towards - all add up to the memories we shall cherish for a long time. Each one of these are those frames which are worth a place in the walls of our life. The more of such moments we capture, the more will our walls tend to expand. Adding a wall one after the other, or at times, breaking the one which we shall not like to be stood besides us, or perhaps waiting for those high richter scale moments where things will collapse, leaving no trails for the future, are all part of the mysteries of the great walls of our lives.

I stand today, at a juncture, just like any other kid, where I want to erect walls after walls, add tonnes of those frames with wonderful cherishing moments, to ensure that I live my life the way I would love to. At times, the importance is very much given to the bricks, the concrete mixtures which add as catalysts  to ensure that the walls stand strong enough, and at times, the significance is all given to the most favorable marks as to where exactly would the hammer hit the nail to make some space for the moments to ensure that they remain for times to come.

I understand that there shall always be a time where the walls won't matter, or where the moments hanging on the walls wouldn't too, but then, perhaps, its just those expressions of our mind and heart which strike us for a fraction of a second, and we feel like we're on top of the world.

Tags: random
Current Mood: happy

Over the past few days, memories of a childhood friend have been moving around me. I have articulated my memories in a few lines, and put them over here to share with the world.

Dhok dekar ke, wishing Papa a very (50th) Happy Birthday today. Many more happy returns of the day.

Tags: wishes

Last year, our team materialized this project. Towards, the end of February a team comprising of our clients visited us and looked at the overall progress of the system. After their return, we received an email subject titled Appreciation where our clients mentioned that they were pleased with the development team and overall progress of the system. They have appreciated our efforts in detail. (I wish, I could produce the entire content of the email!) It felt good to get such a feedback. I find it difficult to express with my limited vocabulary.

Yesterday was a significant day for me. The project on which I was working for a few months saw it's prototype release. I shall share my experiences with the project some other day, importantly, I overcame the power of might and took the first step to learn to give away things, especially when they might turn out to be fruitful opportunities. It's not that I have not given away things in the past, but these ones are for many of us - lifetime opportunities. It was the power of might that always held me for a long time attached to things, but beating that yesterday brought a good level of happiness (or satisfaction or whatever it may be called) to me. I even went ahead to watch the movie 'Ek' which isn't that great at all, but when the mood is good, everything feels good. I shall not undermine the fact that I still wake up at least thrice each night for no good reason at all.

I personally believe - giving up opportunities is not good at all. One should not let go opportunities because the fact is that not every one gets knocks at their doorsteps. But then, yesterday I chose, the other way. I chose, what I would not like to see myself doing for this year. I don't know whether what I have done is right or wrong, would it be beneficial for me or not, is it good to me or not; all I know is that I have taken a decision and only time and I shall withstand the testimony.

Life has many lessons to teach me - at times, I am too stubborn to even lend an ear to such a great teacher, and at times, I listen with the best of my presence of mind and heart. In hope that I listen to my teacher. Amen!

Tags: opportunities, work

These days, I've been watching the Zee Dance India Dance show and I just love it. I enjoy the dance performances and it brings to me an excellent energy. At some of the times, I just get lost in the show and try to imitate a few steps during the TV show advertisements. A fun show with descriptive remarks by the judges. Dancing is fun and being a spectator, I enjoy it more.

Earlier and even today, I enjoy the Boogie Woogie dance show too. I had, a few months back, joined a dance academy to learn Aerobics but left it soon. I just hope I get back to it.

Tags: dance
Current Mood: excited

In a discussion, I was wondering about Top 10 Indian Women Scientists. Naveen K reminded me of Kalpana Chawla, then came Sunita Williams (of Indian origin). Today, did some Google search and came across the following links:

1. http://www.scribd.com/doc/330287/WOMEN-SCIENTIST-OF-INDIA
2. http://nanopolitan.blogspot.com/2006/09/first-women-scientists-at-iisc.html (has links to a few other stories)
3. http://www.ias.ac.in/currsci/mar252005/872.pdf
4. I knew about the Indian Women Scientist Association at Vashi.

This website (Indian Women Scientists) maintains an online directory of women scientists with 654 Scientists Registered to date, has a few articles and reports and other related information.

Current Mood: curious

at the stroke of the lightening
expectations of rain falls arise
where one wants to forget oneself
and cherish the sprinkles of water

the sky is beautiful with not many colours
a few, are those who make the show
viewers, of whom, a few fear
fear the sudden strokes of the nature

they see, those master pieces
with wishes, with hopes and horizons
to look ahead in to the future
they puzzle themselves with questions in mind

not least, but with the best of their thoughts
they realize to take their time
to bring out their very own imagination

Also, updated here at my googlepages.

I don't dislike, rather I hate the art of manipulation. I was once warned by Julie Ma'am (teacher at college) about the same, I ignored it. I thought it shall never happen to me; because I felt I trusted the best lot of people, but to my disappointment I've realized it was my mistake. But still, no matter what courses of time may follow, I know what I have done and will cherish those moments forever. After all, when blessings and wishes are with me, am shielded against all the vulnerabilities that may fall on my path.

One's strength lies in the bubbles of truthfulness that one blows out in the air despite knowing the fact that they shall burst in a few seconds. Opportunities shall always lie in your path but if you try to snatch them along parallel paths of other beings then mind you, you're not looking at your path and alas! accidents are destined to happen. I remember, friends of mine and I have received character certificates from our schools and colleges. Wish these could be followed by our organizations with unbiassed opinions at the best.

Time and again vivid experiences at my professional life are teaching me the same lesson where the only difference I notice is that of the change of reference of the interfaces. Life at work is dirty; brings all the stink around and leaves space for rats to move and hunt down the cheese. But what the jerries don't realize is that once the cheese perishes, they shall have to look for things again and it may continue till they themselves understand the fact that the cheese is not what they should be looking for. Am all waiting for Tom to take an action (primarily meant to be decisive!) where the jerries shall know that the show being run is not for free; each one pays his/her own price. Time shall certainly withstand the various testimonials witnessing the changes that bound to affect the show, but then there shall always lie the difference in opinions of those playing the roles of the show-runner and the show-stopper.

The Tom and the Jerry show has always been entertaining because of the wisery portrayed by Jerry and foolishness by Tom. ;-)

Tags: life, random
Current Mood: uncomfortable

Roger Schank once mentioned - it is in the thinking of the program’s designers and is represented in some way in the programmer’s code. Sounds so true. On the contrary, how can one make those thoughts visible, in particular, when it comes to representing the program to those who shall never sit with you to go through each line of your code? But in a sense, that's right, you've been trusted, and so there seems to be no question at all to doubt you or your capabilities to deliver things beautifully. Your efforts seem to be lost with the trust. Good or bad. I don't know.

The question is that when an organization does not show a sense of care for it's employees, what should the employee do? You shall never have the pride, the ego, the will to achieve name, fame or money but you may want a sense of respect, the care from the organization for which one might have to wait for days, months or years, in hope!

Almost a month ago, I witnessed (at linkedin) a few recommendations for my friend from his honcho and his clients. My friend is not a great person and never was his work appreciated by either his friends or colleagues. But am sure those few words of praise from his senior and clients would have brought enough confidence for him to perform effectively. An hour where we witness clashes amongst teams, seniors and sub-ordinates, it made me feel good for him after reading those few words.

Just a thap-thappi (or shaabaashi) at one's back will provide the spark to ignite the engine. Once started, if the trust flows at frequent intervals, the engine is sure to progress ahead. I was once taught to praise and apologize in public and criticize in private. It's just that the other way round happens and we learn to adjust our lives with it.

Please note: This post has got nothing to do with my honcho, or the organization, or the team am associated with. :)

Tags: praise

Disclaimer: Don't read between the lines. Sasi Sir once referred in a specific context, don't trouble trouble till trouble troubles you.

When I have my mom made food, my senses make me feel that I like the food. Remember senses, as the entity providing the feeling of me liking the food, which makes me feel that the food is delicious. Now, what is the basis? If and when I am asked as to can you describe what is delicious, or how you find the food to be delicious, I will not be able to do so. Say even if I try to reason - I might like the spices in the food which to others might not fall under the classification of the food being delicious at all. Describing the feature of deliciousness is relative from one person to the other. It gives no right to others to tag the food as rubbish and nor does it give the right to the so called civilized humans to ask for justification for the reason that they are not able to understand it.

I have faith in God and various other religious entities. I don't feel a need to question them. I wear a red ribbon on my right hand, I keep a photo of our kul-devi in my office drawer, I keep an idol of Ganesha in my pocket. I keep an idol of Ganesha, Lakshmi, Saraswati on my office desk, I keep an idol of Mahalakshmi on my monitor. I have faith in them. I don't question their existence. If I join my hands towards these idols, if I bend before these idols, it gives no right to others to question me, my faith and my belief in them. If you don't understand these and demand mathematical proofs, please understand that my belief is with me and for me. If you want to have it, please go ahead, have it. I can give you my beliefs, my faiths but not my reasons behind the beliefs and the faiths.

Probably, I don't know them and don't want to know them either. There are many similar instances. Say for example, I don't know why I had had milk from my mother's breast after my birth as an infant to quench my thirst or hunger. I don't know the reason and I don't want to know it. Your science might bestow you with a general idea as to why do infants do that, but if you ask me why did I do that. Sorry boss, you are asking the wrong question.

There can be enormous reasoning behind the questions and you might want to ask them. Go ahead, do it. If you are able to conclude to a reason good for you, and if you are not, then too may the good happen to you. Only if every one knew all the answers, no matter even if they are believing it, we would have had better lives then. We have problems, we keep faith during the good times and if we seek for the very same faith to support us in the course of these problems, it is solely our choice.

Few of us might have been listening to all the prestigious prayers, scriptures, vedas and what not. Each one of us have our own interpretations of the same. You call for problems and Amen, they shall be there!

You would have listened to various babas, devis, swami jees, etc. Most of those words might not have made sense to you. Remember, there shall always be some non-sense awaiting you, you go for them and Amen, they shall be there!

Am sure, by the time you would have completed reading this post. You would have read a lot of things between the lines and troubled trouble to trouble you. May the best happen to you. Amen.

Tags: faith